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I’m running away,
I’ve decided to escape into my dreams.

I will live there with Him so that I will never have to be without. He is my day and my night and my whole reason for LIFE.

I was DEAD before He came along. I live a half-life, a cursed life now that He is gone.

We met on the day of love, so ironically celebrated by a nation that spares everyone none. I haven’t stopped loving Him since.

I know he  knows what I feel inside and what I know to be true. I just can’t get to Him quick enough for my raging mind.

I’m slowly slipping into an eternal abyss of urges and angers. I say things I don’t mean and mean things I don’t say.

All the while He lurks in my mind, in the shadows and unseen. I glimpse the white tip of his tail from time to time but never more.

I am barely sated by the quickly whispered contents of a device that only divides. I am lost without His laughter, without His healing touch.

He sits among friends and laughs the night into oblivion. I reside in a secluded spot and suffer at the stings of my wounds.

I wish to fly into his arms tonight and sleep in his warm embrace. His breath could tickle my neck and I would never stir.

All I want is to feel a warm body next to me, His heart beating steady and strong. His life, deep and mysterious, would give purpose to my own.

But the world is not so kind to us humble sinners. There is no solace for the good of heart and the stout of mind.

I don’t turn my back on those that need me. I am turned away so many times though and beaten with my own good intentions.

I cannot be and am not consoled no matter what I do. The life I have is demanding something far different from what I want to give.

So I’m running away.
I’m escaping into my Dreams.
I need his arms around me like they once were. I need to feel his heart beat and hear his deep voice. His strange laugh needs to echo in my ears again. I'm lost without him. He gave me LIFE as I've never dared experience it and I crave it. Half a year gone by apart and I still miss him. I still miss him as much as the first day I said good bye. How do I get back to him? How do I return?! I need him so badly it hurts and I'm afraid I'll do something I'll regret. But I need him. 

Isn't that strange? To need someone so badly you feel like half of you is missing constantly? Like part of your happiness isn't there. You only have part of your sorrows and sufferings and laughter and joy? Never have I been so dependent on a person. Never have I ached for them. I have always desired a human touch…. but never have I desired a certain persons so much. He… 

I don't want anyone else. I can't think of anyone else in that way. They all fall short. He's not on a pedestal. He's right next to me. I don't fear him or look up to him or down on him. He is with me. Level. I don't know how to handle it. I can't handle it. So I'm running away. Into my dreams. Into the night. Into a place where I can pretend at least for awhile that I am loved in return and that we can share our love unhindered and unfettered……. 
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Mumikansou Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I assume this is about a furry complex you have developed over years of neglect and lack of love from your parents. Perhaps you sought affection from those who would show you love regardless of who or what you are, those of the furry variety. Well I must say... kudos. Kudos to you for letting your feelings show. Remember, you are always loved. Maybe not by me or other humans, but always by furries.  I LOVE YOU GIRL PLEASE COME BACK I AM YOUR PET DOG/AND/OR LLAMA RISEN FROM THE DEAD. PLEASE GIRL SAVE ME FROM THE SCORCHING DEPTHS OF THE LLAMA/DOG VERSION OF HADES. BE THE ORPHEUS YOU KNOW YOURSELF TO BE. I, A FURRY, SEXY LLAMA/DOG AM YOUR EURYDICE. BAMBIPPLEBOPZOOM. 
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Katragoness Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
........well no. That isn't what this is about...... at all actually. But it IS about a friend of mine who kind of woke me up to the fact that I am perfectly amazing just the way I am. Yeah I have a bit of an inner furry. But that's not what the poem's about. lol! XD But thank you for the very thoughtful message. :) And if anything I'm a dog, not a llama. that pic was a gag gift for a friend. :P and for the record I got plenty of love from my parents. they loved me very much. haha! :)
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Mumikansou Featured By Owner Mar 20, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
So sorry. My account was hacked by a (bad) friend who has a bizarre imagination. But you took it like a champ though. My apologies again. 
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Katragoness Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
lol. it's ok. :) i understand. I have those kinda friends too. s'why I have a passcode on my whole computer and not just websites. XD lol
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BakaJinx Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2013
Also. Dreams are nice cause you can do kinky things *nods*

Like dream up two of him at the same time...and a leash >:3

Unf...I need to stop commenting when I just wake up XD
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Katragoness Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
loool. I think he'd like that in person to be honest……. XD He's kinda kinky like me so you know……. stuff would go down. 

Anyway… yeah you probably should. XD haha! 
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